Sunday, June 08, 2008 8:21 AM Journey home
Graduation, parties, celebrations, we have graduated from a 9 week program that took me through so many changes, it feels like 9 years. I have learned that I can remember dialogue that I never thought I would be able to recall in a million years. I have lost quite a few pounds, I have lost a huge amount of emotional baggage, but I am pretty numb right now. I know Bikram said he would make us stronger, or better yet, realize the strength we already have within us, but I dont feel much of anything except for this strange connection to everything, and everybody that I did not feel before. It goes beyond the day to day hello/good bye connection, it is deeper than that. Before I arrived here, I had what I would call anxiety that went to the core of my being because I had been judged so many times, on so many superficial levels, and it all stuck with me, and what I have learned, and will continue to learn, is that I can change my relationship with it, and take away its power. Thanks to the many teachers and staff that helped shape something in me that I can not even fully understand yet, and probably never will. And a huge thanks to Bikram and Rajashree, they have the devotion, love and patience to go through this with us time after time, again and again, and 9 weeks is a long time to work towards helping people learn to become proficient teachers. Next: pictures, pictures, and a few more pictures of the graduation, and departure from 2212, the room I have lived in at the Acapulco princess hotel for 9 weeks. Thank you to everyone who has sent comments and support via email, and thoughts, I got every one, and it helped carry me through, thank you.