Thursday, May 22, 2008 7:55 AM

Well, it seems it is getting down to the wire with only a few weeks left, and I get hit with, Diarrhea. It is something that many people here have been hit with while we are here, but I had successfully avoided it until now, Tuesday it started and I had hopes it would just go away, today is Thursday and I was advised yesterday by the staff nurse I should go see the doctor if it continues. The huge complication with it is the potential for dehydration. The water I drink is being immediately dumped with everything else so I tried taking my travel antibiotic and that made the cramping and intensity worse, so I took an over the counter medication and so far it has quieted the loud sounds coming from my tummy, but it has not stopped the activity. The other complication is access to food that is okay to eat. I believe I may have actually gotten sick from a tuna sandwich I ate at one of the hotel stores Monday night, and now I am a little hesitant to really eat anything here on the grounds, once bitten, twice shy kind of thing, and the buffet offerings are a little limited in the diarrhea friendly department, but I will try to figure it out. I just am having a bit of a problem with having to leave the yoga room, which in other forms of yoga is okay, but in Bikram yoga, is a big no-no. It is hard to determine if the searing gas pain is just gas or going to produce much more, so my last three classes I have had to leave only once each time, but for me it is horrific. The staff come running up and try to hand you a vomit container because that is the only reason they think you should be leaving the room, which I agreed with, until now. I actually had one of the staff go into the bathroom with me, maybe to check on me, I am not sure, it is hard to say. I am so hard on myself, I have had to leave the yoga room 4 times now the entire time I have been here, and in my 2 plus years of practice I have only left the yoga room 2 times total. It is really hard. I love my meditation, I love my yoga, but when my gut feels like this, it is hard to think about anything else. I am really trying though, the humiliation I suffer from leaving the room is too great, heading off the class now, hoping for the best.